Back to Basics

I have so many journals its very hard to keep track of everything. This blog started out as a place for my poem-a-day theme but since I'm barely writing these days and the name is the same as the domain I have sitting dormant I've decided to use the blog in a different way. I just recently placed my first set of accessories on etsy for sale and I've gotten a lot of views but no bites yet. Thats cool. http://bedecadent.etsy.com will be the place where I sell my accessories but savantsoul will most likely be used for the networking site I'm in the process of building. I will also purchase another domain to be used for all of my creative work (fashion/writing/amateur photography). So yeah, I have a ton of work cut out for me and reteaching myself HTML and learning PHP is very high on my to do list.

Fear of Flying

Fear of Flying
of success and opening up
if I fell
would you be there to catch me?
I don't like the idea of falling
of losing my step
tripping over butterflies and warm fuzzies
I want to stand in Love
see eye to eye
be side by side
building
bringing our visions to Life
I'm good alone
maybe cause its all I know
and I've come to like silence
I enjoy the solitary confines of my mind
and One is easy to manage
how can I Love you
how can we be Two
and I still keep myself?
I'm used to being strong
but how do I submit to Love?
I'm about to talk myself out of a good thing
quite possibly the Real thing
but how do I go?
I'm stuck here
stagnated in solitude
I want out
I want in
I want you
how can I let you see me?
the frailties of my ego
my flaws, quirks
exposed, raw and naked
all I need to know
is how to Love and be Loved

Build

piece by piece
we've been putting this together
no recipe to follow
or examples on the box
just doing what feels right
slowly but surely its coming together
laying the foundation
tiny blocks of trust
history, understanding
loyalty
its coming together
alone
we're great
united
we're unstoppable
change is coming....

Spring

New beginnings
spring means new
means fresh
means me + you
water and earth
nurture the roots
and blooms will follow
its nature
done on its own time
how can you time the rate of growth
in a flowers stem?
from seed to fall
mother nature and father time
do their own thing
this is the same for us
we cant rush nature
all you can do is flow
go with it
and come with me

Aura

you have no idea
of all the ways you make me smile
revolutionary
lets get free
free or die
you're so fuckin fly
i can see us moving earths
creating worlds
in you i see infinity
times me so thats more to be
proactive, progressive
your aura is so bright
most couldnt handle the glare
but i cant help staring
your spirit is enticing
a cool drink in a heatwave
your words are truly food for thought
'cept one taste leaves me starving
it'll take a lifetime to get my fill
i got all the time in the world
and that runs out
we'll make another

Vision

I dream in color
visions I can taste and smell
so vivid and full of life
taking away the pains of my day to day
reminding me to stay awake
saying 'dont give in'
'Hold on!'
'Keep dreaming'

So I Do
I do because I know in the end this will be
that in time, everything will come to pass

This is Me
making my reality
finding a piece of the puzzle each day
daily relevations
written by my own hand
taken to heart
because today could be the day they come true

I see.

Day Job

You fuel my dreams
while slowly killing them
at the same time
I want to leave
but you're a stubborn thorn
a vital piece of what I need
and everything that I don't want
Constantly distracting me
from my reality
just day to day
I clock in vain
watching my spirit drift away
The day I leave
I'll cry with joy
Burn my ID
and embrace the uncertainty of my future
I can't wait to be free